Growing up.

I think we should all try to accept the fact that it's time to do it: grow up, that is. 
My best friends don't understand that when they are upset or unsettled or not okay....I am too. I care about what they do, I care about how they feel and that's just the way it is. Regardless of whether it is me or someone else making them feel that way...I care about how they feel. 


Now, my decisions are my decisions. I will make them. I am 18 and I appreciate your opinion BUT I would appreciate it if my decisions were not ridiculed and taken personally. Honestly people....let's calm down here. We're all grown up...let's love each other regardless. 
THAT is the key, I think. 
LOVE.
I can love you, as my friend, without loving all of your decisions. But do I have the authority to tell you what I think of EACH AND EVERY one of your decisions? No. I don't. So I won't. Because you are also 18, maybe 19. And you are perfectly capable of making your own decisions. If you ask for my opinion, I'll gladly give it to you. I expect the same from you. 


But let's just love each other and share that. Let's not be shy about letting our friends know we appreciate them. 


I know people aren't happy right now. But it's not my fault and it's most certainly not my job to make you feel better....although I feel like it is. Sometimes, I feel like the glue of my group...the only one who tries to hold it all together. And I don't mean the group. I know the group dynamic has changed. I mean, I'm the only one who asks to hang out, I'm the only one who texts and calls and makes plans...I'd be nice to feel like my friends are happy I'm home. 


I don't know. I'm just really considering not coming home next semester. And if I do...I won't tell my friends. Just my family. Is it bad to want to feel appreciated? No. I don't think so. 


But you know what, I will always love. Always. Regardless of how you treat me....I'll love you. I'll call you. I'll text you when you need someone to talk to. I'll drive to your house at 2 am if you need a hug. Always. So please, don't hesitate to let me know. :)


Love is the answer people. 
LOVE.
So do it. 


And to my friends who read this: I miss you. I love you. Let's embrace things as they come and grow up together. I'm a people person, I need you. I give you my word, I won't let you down; so please try and return the favor. 


p.s. I also apologize to those of you reading this post who think it's a cry for attention or a sobby pity party. It's not. It's a flipping blog post. Get over it. :)


Okay, thanks.
Back to the love.  <3