"Taking Chances"

"Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world.
Don't want to be alone tonight,
on this planet they call Earth.


You don't know about my past.
and I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is all too fast.
and maybe it's not meant to last.


But what do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge.
Never knowing if there's solid ground below,
or hand to hold,
or Hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?


I just want to start again.
Maybe you could show me how to try.
Maybe you couldt ake me in.
Somewhere underneath your skin.

But what do you say to taking chances?

What do you say to jumping off the edge.

Never knowing if there's solid ground below,

or hand to hold,

or Hell to pay...

What do you say?

What do you say?

And I let my heart get beaten down but I always come back for more

there's nothing like a love to pull you up when you're lying down on the floor

so talk to me, talk to me, like lovers do.

walk with me, walk with me, like lovers do.

like lovers do. 

What do you say to taking chances?

What do you say to jumping off the edge.

Never knowing if there's solid ground below,

or hand to hold,

or Hell to pay...

What do you say?

What do you say?

Don't know much about your life.

Don't know much about your world."

Today, I have a terrible case of the Mondays.

Everything just seems kind of....sad. Bummer...

I would do anything right now to be back to Friday night. But it's only Monday...and I have a whole week until I can go back and see him. 

Darn this sucks. Sometimes I try really hard to tell myself that this is a terrible idea and I should just not let myself feel this way. 

But then the good things happen. He just makes me...smile. Genuinely. No fake theater kid smiles. A real, genuine, beautiful smile. Just because he's there. That's all it takes. He doesn't have to make a joke, or hold my hand, or anything. He just has to be there and BOOM. Smile. I haven't felt this way in such a long time.

You know, I tried to get a Twitter. I tried really hard. But then....I saw an old tweet of his about the last girl. And I am generally very good at listening to people talk about other important people in their lives. But seeing that was hard for me. Hard because I don't even know how I wound up with this boy...but I did!! And I'm so excited. And it doesn't make me sad that he's had other girls, it makes me sad that it could leave as fast as it came . It's actually very scary. I don't want to emotionally invest in this thing, but with ME...that's very hard to do. Hahaha. 

Question: What have I got myself into?

Answer: An absolutely incredible person. 

The one day I get to see him a week, is totally worth spending the whole week waiting though!

And that's just simply awesome to me. 

But I'm also very sure that my case of the Mondays is being party caused by some friends.

I feel so unwanted now a days it's kind of weird. I'm used to being included, or doing the including, you know? And now it's very different. But all in all, I'm fine with it. I knew it had to happen eventually. It just scares me for this summer and stuff. What will I do? My school friends are going to be in their hometowns and I'll be back in mine.....my friends might have completely moved on by then and my boyfriend might not even be there. 

Boyfriend...that feels so cool to type. Hahaha.

Goodness.

I'm freaking out now.

Let's wish for a better day tomorrow...a better day and a better outlook on things. 

Taylor Swift always replays in my head during moments like this.

Sunday night, back at school, getting ready for another week. 


This weekend was something else.
What have I discovered?

• I love boys who smell delicious.
• I love being close to boys who smell delicious.
• I love smelling delicious because I was close to a boy who smelled delicious. 
• I have a wonderful life.
• People who have problems eventually get over them.
• I easily miss people.
• Peace Tea is hard to find.
• I was one point away from an A on my Psych test on Friday.
• I have a wonderful roommate.

What happened?

(insert long dramatic happy girl sigh here) Let's just say, Taylor Swift writes some beautiful songs and they replay in my head every time I hold his hand. This could honestly end up in disaster, but as of right now...I'm a very happy camper. 

"There I was again tonight,

forcing laughter, faking smiles,

the same old, tired, lonely place.

Walls of insincerity,

shifting eyes of vacancy,

vanished when I saw your face.

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you.

Your eyes whispered 'have we met?'

Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me.

The playful conversation starts,

Counter all your quick remarks,

like passing notes in secrecy.

All I can say it was enchanting to meet you.

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go.

I'm wonderstruck,

blushing all the way home.

I'll spend forever, wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you."

Thanks, John.

John Steinbeck wrote: "I believe a strong woman may be stronger than a man, particularly if she happens to have love in her heart. I guess a loving woman is indestructible."


I always liked John. 

"The show must go on."

^ is the name of the nail polish I am wearing.
and it's absolutely perfect for my life right now.


Nothing stops for you. Nothing stops for me. No matter what so-and-so posted on so-and-so's facebook last night, nothing is going to stop. People have their own worlds and the world continues to turn. I like to think that for every person that leave your life, someone else will walk in. Although that isn't always true...I still like to think.


Sometimes, amazing things happen that you never even expected.
And sometimes, you hurt people without meaning to do so.
But, whatever happens...happens. And it happens because you took a chance.
It's taken me a long time to want to take a chance. But I've finally taken a whole bunch of chances.
I went to school.
I stayed at school.
I met some amazing people.
I met some not so amazing people.
I lost a lot of friends.
But I got a whole lot more.
One of the most important friendships in my life has been resurrected.
For the first time in almost two years, my heart is completely in someone else's hands....and although my friends don't all approve, my heart is happy.


Song of the day:
Enchanted by Taylor Swift

New&Knew

What’s new?

New roommate.

New room.

New building.

New classes.

New boy.

There are too many funny stories to fit on my fingers and toes… I’m thrilled about life right now!!

What’s knew?

“Don’t’ you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine and life makes love look hard.” Taylor Swift.

I will always be here for the ones I love, regardless of how they feel and act.

Blog worthy quotes:

“No, I’m just sitting on the ground, cracking up because I like it.”

“You look like a tootsie roll.”

“You drink like a gopher.”

My heart is making like a sandal and flip flopping. :)

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect- you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break- her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze her and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."


Right now this is for me, one of my best friends, and every girl. I love this quote.