"Taking Chances"

"Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world.
Don't want to be alone tonight,
on this planet they call Earth.


You don't know about my past.
and I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is all too fast.
and maybe it's not meant to last.


But what do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge.
Never knowing if there's solid ground below,
or hand to hold,
or Hell to pay
What do you say?
What do you say?


I just want to start again.
Maybe you could show me how to try.
Maybe you couldt ake me in.
Somewhere underneath your skin.

But what do you say to taking chances?

What do you say to jumping off the edge.

Never knowing if there's solid ground below,

or hand to hold,

or Hell to pay...

What do you say?

What do you say?

And I let my heart get beaten down but I always come back for more

there's nothing like a love to pull you up when you're lying down on the floor

so talk to me, talk to me, like lovers do.

walk with me, walk with me, like lovers do.

like lovers do. 

What do you say to taking chances?

What do you say to jumping off the edge.

Never knowing if there's solid ground below,

or hand to hold,

or Hell to pay...

What do you say?

What do you say?

Don't know much about your life.

Don't know much about your world."

Today, I have a terrible case of the Mondays.

Everything just seems kind of....sad. Bummer...

I would do anything right now to be back to Friday night. But it's only Monday...and I have a whole week until I can go back and see him. 

Darn this sucks. Sometimes I try really hard to tell myself that this is a terrible idea and I should just not let myself feel this way. 

But then the good things happen. He just makes me...smile. Genuinely. No fake theater kid smiles. A real, genuine, beautiful smile. Just because he's there. That's all it takes. He doesn't have to make a joke, or hold my hand, or anything. He just has to be there and BOOM. Smile. I haven't felt this way in such a long time.

You know, I tried to get a Twitter. I tried really hard. But then....I saw an old tweet of his about the last girl. And I am generally very good at listening to people talk about other important people in their lives. But seeing that was hard for me. Hard because I don't even know how I wound up with this boy...but I did!! And I'm so excited. And it doesn't make me sad that he's had other girls, it makes me sad that it could leave as fast as it came . It's actually very scary. I don't want to emotionally invest in this thing, but with ME...that's very hard to do. Hahaha. 

Question: What have I got myself into?

Answer: An absolutely incredible person. 

The one day I get to see him a week, is totally worth spending the whole week waiting though!

And that's just simply awesome to me. 

But I'm also very sure that my case of the Mondays is being party caused by some friends.

I feel so unwanted now a days it's kind of weird. I'm used to being included, or doing the including, you know? And now it's very different. But all in all, I'm fine with it. I knew it had to happen eventually. It just scares me for this summer and stuff. What will I do? My school friends are going to be in their hometowns and I'll be back in mine.....my friends might have completely moved on by then and my boyfriend might not even be there. 

Boyfriend...that feels so cool to type. Hahaha.

Goodness.

I'm freaking out now.

Let's wish for a better day tomorrow...a better day and a better outlook on things.