Old news:
the boy.
the perspective.
the frustration.
New news:
There's so much bouncing around in my head...hence the title of this blog.
My emotions haven't gone crazy like I thought they would when the stuff with the boy happened.
I think it's because my heart is elsewhere. It's here...and he was there. That sounds really vague and all....but it makes tons of sense. Getting over him has been easy. I could say that I haven't really thought about it since that night....but I'd be lying. I have thought about him, but in ways of admiration and happiness that things worked out the way they did.
Now my heart is freaking me out. I'm perfectly content here. I love where I am. The people I'm surrounded by on a daily basis make me the happiest person ever. I love who I am here.
I just want to take this blog to say a few things I've realized.
1) When you leave high school....EVERYTHING changes. The way you see people, the way you see yourself, EVERYTHING. And for me, when fake people have been introduced into my life, I'll casually back out of a serious friendship with them. And the wait was VERY worth it. I have an awesome roommate who is also one of my closest friends here. And recently, we've had the pleasure of getting close with another friend. He just clicked with us. That's something else I've learned...
2)when you find the people that you feel like you've known forever but you've only known for a week....keep them. Because they will make you happy.
And if you guys are reading this....I am very happy. And it feels really good to be able to say that.
Thank you.
but all of that loveliness isn't what's freaking me out.
It's the fact that over spring break and summer these people that have so quickly become such an important part of my life, will not be with me. It's going to be hard...and weird...and probably a little lonely....and I hope they know that I will miss them dearly.
They've both taken a really special part of my heart. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
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