Change is like taxes.

Yes. I have discovered that change is a never ending concept...much like taxes. And that's what this summer will be full of. No, not taxes. But change.


I've decided to just state this "out loud." 
Starting tomorrow (or today, rather) I am striving to be healthier inside and out; more physically fit; I want to start habits that will benefit me for the rest of my life. This is going to require me to lose some weight and I'm ready to take on this challenge....I think!


This is going to be really difficult for me. I love snacky foods, chocolate, french fries (sweet potato fries..yummmmm!) all that stuff that should be eaten in moderation. 


That is why I wanted to make this public. I feel like if I make a public announcement, I'll feel more obligation to stick to this plan. 


What exactly is my plan, you ask?
Well, I'd like to eat much more fresh fruits and vegetables.
I'd like to not have soda. Much more water and yummyness like that. 
I'd like to not have fast food (french fries, chicken strips, greasy cheeseburgers, etc.)
I'd like to exercise 3+ times a week. In fact, in regards to exercise I want to try and follow this: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml I'm already on week two! Which is awesome and very exciting! :)


Can I do this?
I think so. It's going to be really difficult, but I think I can do it!! When I come back to school I am going to look and feel, how do they say it? SUPAAA FLYY. :)


What other changes are going to be made this summer?
Hmmmm. I really want to start reading more! And hopefully stick to my summer goal list :)
Emotionally, I want to be able to sit down and just tell myself that things are as they are. And things that will be, will be. It's a lot harder for me than it should be sometimes because I have a tendency to just go out and change things. But I think....I just need to wait this one out. 
I have amazing friends and family to help me out here so even though this is going to be difficult as well....I think I can make it through.


Here's to an amazing and life-changing summer!


As for right now, I have a STATS final at 8:00am. Let's kick some butt!!

Summer Goals:

• get passport
• read Kurt Vonnegut/get some reading done!
• get a job
• take summer classes
• lose 20lbs
• don't cut your hair!
• save 1/2 of every paycheck
• apply for as many scholarships as possible
• make a freshmen year memory something or other

a week and half.

yup. there's a week and a half left of my first year of college and i am freaking out.
freeeeeakkking outttt.


i have four months at home.
that's so much time.
i love my family. i love my friends. i love my home.
but now i also love people here. i love my room. i love my roommate. i love all of my friends.


i hope with all my heart that summer just makes us all better friends.
i don't want to lose these people.
there's one friend in particular. i've never met anyone like them. we just....click. everyone wants someone like that and i have one. :)
i know next year will be very different...a lot of chnages are going to happen. but i hope with every part of my heart that our friendship is real and won't leave. because i appreciate this person more than i could even say with words.


someday. someday it's going to happen.
i have so much faith.
and maybe i shouldn't.
but i've never had anything like this.
i've have so many amazing friends. i currently have the best friends in the whole world.
but this one is just so...effortless.


time to stop day dreaming and face reality, though.


finals.
summer.
and then right back here. to this same room. to the same warm and friendly smiles that i've grown to love.


i'm going home.
but i'll be back "home" in no time.


i can't wait for some amazing summer memories (as different as this summer will be) but i'm even more excited to have never ending nights doing homework that never gets done, and making jokes that no one understands (even us).


best friend?
yea. i feel it.